I'm back and feeling lots better!

Last year my Sister-in-law offered to have Abby come visit her girls during the summer. The only problem was that we live in the middle of nowhere Montana and the only direct flights out of here are to Seattle, Denver, and SLC, none of which are close to Reno, NV and I just didn't feel good about putting my little girl on a connecting flight by herself. So it changed to Sister-in-law coming to SLC and Abby flying down. Then we saw the price ~ YIKES!

We finally decided that I would drive down with Abby, drop her off and have a vacation TO MYSELF! My sweet husband knew this is exactly what I needed. I've been working a lot on my emotional issues and false beliefs about myself. I really wanted this to be a spiritual pilgrimage - a "walkabout" per se. My first idea was to visit as many temples in the SLC area as possible. Then plans changed, my Mom visited for a day and all us girls went to "This is the Place" park. Amazing! I can't wait to take the rest of the family on our next trip down.

Saturday was the true "start" to my personal vacation and I slept in and then went to the temple in SLC. As I entered the temple I felt like this was the first time I really felt "spiritually prepared" to be going to a session. I got there for the noon session, I'd never been to a live session before. It blew me away! I just had to go to another session! I ended up spending as long as I could in the temple that day. At the end of the day, as I changed back into my normal clothes, I had a feeling of loss that this wonderful day was over. I understand things so differently, see things so differently. This scripture really put things in perspective for me :

Alma 26:12 Yea, I know that I am ^anothing; as to my strength I am weak; therefore I will ^bnot boast of myself, but I will ^cboast of my God, for in his ^dstrength I can do all ^ethings...

I will always be weak, I will always feel not up to the task of being a mother because that is reality. However, "in his ^dstrength I can do all ^ethings..." The power that I have (and God's greatest gift to me) is the freedom to choose whether or not I partake of His strength. I choose to partake.